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I'm Annette and all through school I pulled out my eyelashes. I started
on my fringe, and ended up pulling out all my hair before long. I wore
a wig for most of my life, which resulted in me being withdrawn and upset
at work. I missed out on promotions because of lack of confidence.
I didn't understand why I had this strange compulsion and the more I
pulled, the less I liked or understood myself.
I had endless eye infections so my mum took me to the doctors but even
they could not work out what was wrong with me.
When I asked my sister, "Why do I pull out my eyelashes?" she
just laughed and said "Because you're a sicko".
I started to draw on my eyebrows when I was just 13. My family never
understood why. Nobody understood, not even me, but I was the only person
who knew I was pulling. Plucking and pulling.
I so needed to talk to someone, so one day I pulled my best friend aside
and told her "I can't stop pulling out my eyelashes and eyebrows".
Next day everyone was laughing at me behind my back and I lost my best
friend.
I never told anyone after that and whenever I went out I would have to
spend ages first getting my waterproof make-up exactly right.
I'd been pulling for 25 years when my kids insisted we get internet connection
at home so they could do their homework. When everyone was out, I started
learning to use the computer. The day came when I typed "help me
stop pulling out my eyelashes" into Yahoo and came up with this website.
I decided to try Trichnotherapy.
I didn't think it would work for me, but I knew I needed to tell SOMEONE,
anyone ... I just needed to talk. Pull free just didn't seem like me,
so I told my therapist I didn't care if I became pull free or not, but
I just wanted to talk about the guilt and the shame of lash pulling.
I emailed her every day and gradually I started to understand the disorder.
That was four years ago and I haven't pulled a lash or hair in four years.
Sometimes you just have to act spontaneously - we trichsters think things
through too much.
I've recently been promoted and would never have DREAMT of applying for
such a high-powered job until I started Trichnotherapy; this is the highest
I can go in my current field.
Pull free IS who I am. Trichotillomania was just a disorder, it was never
ME.
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