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of all ages can be cruel, and it takes a journey, truly, to realize that,
especially ones with trich. When I was only in third grade, I started pulling
out my beautiful, long, thick hair
for reasons I didnt know,
for reasons then I didnt care to know...But children that young are
so unforgiving
and it started to take its toll. And the more
they asked me, the more I ripped from me
not just hair, whole emotions,
tears.
Over the next two or three years, I was on a vicious cycle, picking horrendously for a few days, and then feeling so bad that I wouldnt dare touch my scalp for the next, and then almost rewarding myself for not picking by picking I felt horrible. But the summer after fifth grade, I managed to go free of the desire for the entirety of middle school but that summer before I started high school, it was all for nothing..
I started again, with my fully re-grown set of beautiful, thick hair, from where I was almost completely bald before. My friends have never asked, but I can see the stares, the looks of concern...on their faces. My teachers, too. Next year, Ill be a sophomore, and continue to pull on my hair, and have a bald spot almost the diameter of a tennis ball on my scalp and across the back of my head.
Its been hard because my parents have no clue about this...what its called; they just think Im a freak for it, truly. My mom asks why all the time, and I really have no answer and shell never research it, only threaten me with various things. Its horrid, what she says to me. My dad, too. I know theyre concerned, but theres only so much, telling me that I pick how large the spots getting. They tell me like I dont know. They dont have to live with the people, the stares, the comments that are just barely out of hearing range and I dont have the courage to tell them, or anyone. I feel like Im living with this alone. And hopefully, I can overcome that before it breaks me. Ive been on no medication, but will begin trying out your low-glucose diet and see what works you guys might really do wonders for lots of people Thanks for being there when so many arent.
><>Kati<>< |
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